I wish I had started much earlier than I did on trying to accept being gay. For years and years I said I wanted either a pill or the wave of a magic wand to make me straight. Actually who am I kidding, I still want that. As you can see, accepting being gay is still a major work in progress for me.
Instead of working on it, I tried not to think about being gay even though I thought about it all the time. As a corollary, I wish if I could have done it without being one of the casualties of the 1980's and 1990's that I had had sex long before I was 41.
On the other hand, maybe if it meant I would have found love, being a casualty would have been better. When you are 55 and never have had a relationship, the odds don't seem very high of having one. I don't know if I was ever capable of 'falling in love', but I doubt I can now at my age.
Gman